Tuesday, December 17, 2013

BLOG 26: RESEARCH PAPER

Medical as a discourse community


          "Research on interaction in medical encounters has moved from a framework that assumed a static and institutional asymmetry between providers and patients" (Barton, 2000). Barton explains that research on interaction in medical encounters has moved from a framework that lacked action and lack of equality between providers (physicians) and patients. Ellen Barton focuses on, " the situated nature of two intertwined dimensions of the context of medical encounters-expertise and compliance within the interactional practices of referrals and accounts of referrals between medical professionals and families" (Barton, 2000). In this research study, I will study medical conversations shaped by a discourse community, meaning the language usage a physician (expert) uses when speaking to a patient opposed to how the physician (expert) speaks to the family. Within this research study I will focus on how the patient feels about how the physician talks to the patient versus family. Focusing if the patient complies (having compliance) with the treatment prescribed by her physician (expert) versus non-compliant with the treatment prescribed by her physician (expert) for her medical condition.
             In this research study, the relationship between Barton's study and this research study is both focus on the compliance and non-compliance of what the physician (expert) requires the patient to follow. Barton's research study is different from this research study because it will be from an adult, the patient's point of view opposed to a parental view regarding a child as the patient.
            Ellen Burton's research study focuses on, "specifically on families who have a child diagnosed with a disability, and investigates a number of settings within this experience," (Barton, 2000). Within this research study I will focus on  an adult patient with a medical condition known as Lupus, focusing on her point of view of the way the physician speaks to her (as the patient) opposed to the way the physician speaks to the patient's family. I will focus on compliance and non-compliance of the patient with the physician's requirements.
            "In medicine, compliance and non-compliance are technically defined in behavioral terms as, "the extent to which a person's behavior coincides with medical or health advice" (Barton, 2000). According to Barton, "Often-cited examples of compliance and non-compliance in the medical literature include taking medicine, attending appointments, following dietary restrictions, performing self-examinations, etc." (Barton, 2000).
            Within this research study, compliance will be defined as the patient's communication with the physician, taking the required medication and procedures that the patient undergoes every time due to her medical condition. "When patients were asked what aspect of the interaction had the most influence in increasing their compliance behavior, most stated that it was having someone take the time to talk to them, answer their questions and consider their concerns" (Barton, 2000).
            "Discourse is assumed to be designed and shaped to occur in particular sequential and social contexts" (Barton, 2000). "When physicians make a referral, their medical expertise provides them with a coherent model of the various specialties and their domains" (Barton, 2000). Within this research study the patient was referred to a Hematologist and then the Hematologist referred the patient to a Gastroenterologist, who performs Endoscopy's. Each specialist performs tasks that are within their area of expertise.
             “Non-compliance, then, seems to be a contextual dimension of major importance: its discovery affects the interaction by triggering asymmetrical dominance by the medical professional in pursuit of accepted standards of medical care for the child,” (Barton, 2000). Not only is this research study focusing on compliance, non-compliance as well. With an adult patient, who is able to make decisions on her own, there are times due to the circumstances of the medical condition; the patient is often non-compliant to certain treatments given by the physician. 
            “In the following excerpts from a parent’s account of her daughter’s hospitalization, for example, the physician probes repeatedly in interactional work that attempts to develop a reliable account,” (Barton, 2000).  In Barton’s observations, non-compliance occurred inadvertently when the child was taken off medication, removed from a psychiatric placement and not re-evaluated. The parent’s were unable to give a reliable account for the physician (expert) with enough information to make decisions about the child’s care.
            “Because of the lack of expertise displayed in the family’s accounts, this responsibility has been shifted to staff,” (Barton, 2000). In Barton’s observations, she focuses on a case when a family has a reputation for intentional non-compliance. During one of her observations with a particular appointment, a nurse tells her that, “This family is non-compliant as hell,” (Barton, 2000).  Barton’s observation regarding the family’s non-compliance was, “Problematic accounts from families known to be non-compliant, such as the family in (19) can be received in markedly asymmetrical form,” (Barton, 2000).
            Within this research study, the patient had some encounters with her physician of being non-compliant when the physician kept insisting on the patient to continue taking a certain medication for a specific treatment. In this case the patient was non-compliant because of the side effects that she was feeling from that particular medication.  According to Barton, “ … if the non-compliance may be unintentional, as in…the physicians interaction and actions become more authoritative, as the family which has displayed its lack of expertise is turned over to the clinic staff” (Barton, 2000).
Methods
            Within this research study I conducted two interviews with an adult patient with a medical condition known as Lupus and her point of view of how her physician speaks to her (as a patient) opposed to how the physician speaks to the family. I will also focus on whether the patient has compliance or non-compliance when it comes to the physician’s regimen, requirements for treatment. The two interviews that I conducted each were thirty minutes long. Asking questions regarding her medical condition and her perspective on how her medical condition changed her from the beginning of being diagnosed with the condition to how it evolved into what it is now. Focusing on when she was compliant to her physician’s requirement and when she was non-compliant as well. I also conducted an ethnographic study, which I observed the patient in a Hematologist’s office while doing her weekly blood count. The ethnographic study was twenty-five minutes long. “Ethnographic field research involves the study of groups and people as they go about their everyday lives,” (Emerson, 1995).
            In this research I will analyze the subcategories that are part of compliance and non-compliance. The subcategories that apply to compliance and non-compliance came from the interview response’s given by my subject. Each subcategory for compliance was in agreement with Barton’s research study because it focuses on communication, procedures and taking medications. The subcategories for non-compliance came from the response’s given by my subject; which focuses on side effects, I know more than the doctor and fear.  Within the interview questions and responses provided by my subject, I noticed that two set of stories stood out; which were Agency and Conflict, but each category has their own subcategories.
Presentation of Data and Analysis
            In this research study, two interviews were performed with MC (my subject) and I found within my subject’s responses that two categories appeared with subcategories that support each one. I focus on the two categories; which are compliance versus non-compliance and each subcategory is supported by the interview responses that were provided by my subject.
            Compliance:  Within the interview, my subject MC spoke about how she complies with the treatment that her physician (expert) requires her to do, such as communication, telling the physician whether or not the medication or treatment is benefiting or not regarding her medical condition.  Compliance also appeared in our interview when she spoke about procedures and appointments.
            Communication:  MC talks about how her physician wants her to try many medications to if MC is able to tolerate them or not. In the example below, MC refers to certain medications that she was either trying out or taking as “crap,” a way of pointing out to her physician that she isn’t tolerating the medication that was prescribed to her.
A: What does the doctor say when you say you won’t take that crap anymore?
MC: Sometimes he tries to give me another medication. Try this one, try this one, but the results it’s particularly the same. Pain in the stomach, sick, but he tries to always help me. Sometimes the medication works and I accept better than the last one or I reject it. It all depends on my body, if it accepts it or not. But I always try to tell him that I do or don’t do well and he helps me. I can’t say that he doesn’t when it’s not true he has always helped me. At times we become stubborn, but we move forward. But I always take the medication he gives me and I try to explain my reaction whether good or bad.
            Within the category Compliance, one of the subcategories that appeared in the interview was about being compliant in taking medications.  MC describes how she is compliant with the treatment her physician (expert) prescribes to her and her reaction to each one.
Taking Medications:
A: What medication?
MC: Ahh… it was so long ago. I took all possible type of medication for various treatments. It was cortisone, pain medication for inflammation, sleeping pills and…
A: Tell me a story when you were happy with the treatment, your physician prescribed to you?
MC: in the beginning when I first began taking the injections, what’s the name?
A: Humira
MC: Humira, I was, I thought that I got to the moment of bettering my condition, but unfortunately it only lasted about one or two months and then it went back to the beginning.
A: Describe to me more of what you mean about being happy with this treatment?
MC: Oh, because I stopped having pains, my blood levels were stabilized; my hemoglobin wasn’t that low and I was in a better state. I was able to live my life freely. I still worked. After the day of 19th of December 2012, it was when everything happened.
A: And with this treatment of the Humira, how often did you do this treatment and for how long?
MC:  It was once, one injection, every two weeks for two months. But on the second month, half way through I began feeling tired. I would become really tired especially after going up a flight of stairs, whatever little thing I would do, I felt tired. So I went to the doctors and the doctor said I can no longer take the injections because it wasn't helping, it was only harming me. And from there on, I kept going to the hospital, receiving blood transfusions.
            In the first interview I asked my subject MC, when she did not comply with the physician’s requirement, but the answer given by my subject indicated both compliance and non-compliance, as both categories appear within her response. For example:
A: Okay, Can you tell me a story, when you as a patient did not comply with the doctor’s requirement for your treatment?
MC:  No, I haven’t failed with any treatment given by the doctor. Just the Prednisone, I never liked that medication. I tried to take it, I’m not saying daily (non-compliance), but there were weeks that I would take it the full week, (compliance), but there were other weeks that it wouldn’t settle right with me.
A: Could you tell me more about your experience every time you were given a new medication to try for your treatment?
MC: If the doctor says I have to take it then I take it. But it’s the side effects of that medication that I have to see to discuss with the doctor about how I feel, if I feel well, if it’s the same thing as not taking anything and with his experience he tries to help me. Certain new situations, I never refused taking it, at times I say I don’t want it, it tastes horrible, I have stomach pains, or I’m not going to take that crap.
Another subcategory that came from the interview responses was about procedures and how she complies with the procedures that are required for her to do. Not only was this subcategory in the interview that was conducted between my subject and me, but also in my ethnographic study. In my ethnographic study, I observed my subject in a Hematologist office doing her weekly routine blood work. It’s a procedure because MC needs to check her blood count every week by a specialist (Hematologist) to make sure her hemoglobin, iron; red blood and white blood cell levels don’t drop drastically.
Procedures:
A:  Now that you mentioned that, Tell me about your experience every time you are required to go to the hospital and how it affects you every time?
MC: Every time I end up going to the hospital, it effects me  morally, physically, and mentally because it’s not one or two times, it’s various of times that I undergo the same procedure and every time I tolerate less each time.
A: Speaking about transfusions, could you explain to me how you feel every time you get iron transfusions as well as blood?
MC: When I get iron and blood, the first and second day I feel my immune system down, but little by little as days go by I begin to feel more strength, I am able to do more things around the house. And my state of being is different. Just walking is the hardest thing for me because my bones hurt me a lot still. I do have medication for pain (inflammation), but it hardly helps me.
            MC gives a response about Endoscopy’s to one of the questions asked during the interview. An Endoscopy is a procedure; it’s to look inside a person’s internal organs using an endoscope.
MC: Ahhh, it’s a critical medical condition because majority of the time I’m afraid to bleed, end up in the hospital, get blood transfusions. I need to do the treatment I need to do like go for Endoscopy’s, cauterization. All of this, I can’t live normally; I don’t have quality of life.
A: Hmmmm, How has your medical condition affect you and your family, in terms of following with what the physician recommended?
MC: Only when I do the Endoscopy, everyone wants me to automatically drink that famous solution in my mouth. Just by that there’s disagreements, one says drink it, another says drink and another says drink it, but I can’t. I have to scream and say, “Stop it, let me, my head alone.”
Non-Compliance:
            Side Effects: In the interview I asked my subject MC if there was a time that MC did not comply with her physician’s requirement.
A: Okay, can you tell me a story when you as a patient did not comply with the doctor’s requirement for your treatment?
MC: No, I haven’t failed with any treatment given by my doctor. Just the Prednisone, I never liked that medication. I tried to take it, I’m not saying daily, but there were weeks that I would take it the full week, but there were other weeks that it wouldn’t settle right with me.
In the second interview I asked MC a question about sleeping pills and why MC doesn’t like taking them.
A:  How come?
MC: I don’t like it, I never did. I feel sick with sleeping pills or relaxers. Just the state of being apathetic and not have a sense of anything. The silence is horrible.
            I know more than the doctor: In this particular case MC explains through her point of view that she may not know a lot about medicine, but she knows how she feels while taking the medication.
A: Speaking about your physician, tell me more of when you and your physician wouldn’t see things eye to eye when it comes to your condition?
MC: When I don’t agree with the doctor, neither is the doctor in agreement with my opinion; which in reality I don’t know anything about medicine, but I feel my body and system, what’s wrong. And sometimes he says it’s mentally and I say its not and he says that I have to take the medication to sleep and I hate sleeping pills.
A: And what would your doctor say when you would…
MC: He would say that I'm stubborn and I said stubborn is you because I know what I feel. I know that I have no knowledge about medicine, but you don't know everything about my body and the way I react or not. I began the treatment to a certain point, but after that point I can't do it. And at times we have our encounters because I say one thing and he says another. Because of the blood sugar levels was making me scared of eating, afraid it'll rise. He would say it was all mental, it was me being paranoid. I'm none of that, absolutely nothing
            Fear: MC talks about how she is afraid of bleeding again, going to the hospital and eating.
MC:  Afraid yes, I was afraid of eating, that part yes. I was afraid because of my diabetes. Now a day when I do Endoscopy’s, is when I feel nauseous, I don’t want to eat, but that is normal, but there was a time that I wanted to stop eating because of my diabetes. And he would say I’m stubborn that I need to eat, I know I needed to eat, but at the same time I was afraid of my diabetes.
A: Tell me a story when you weren’t happy with the treatment your physician prescribed to you?
MC: Someone with the life condition that I have is never happy because I live always being worried; if it’s today I’ll bleed or is it tomorrow my hemoglobin is low. If it’s low, everything turns to be the same. It’s transfusions, hospitals, etc. It’s a life that I have no quality at all. I can’t do certain things that other people can do, I can’t work. I have to do things much slower, yet I bleed. Many things I no longer can do, it’s difficult.
            While analyzing the interview, two sets of stories stood out; which were Agency and Conflict. These two set of stories are the main categories and within each category there are subcategories that support why these two set of stories came from. Agency is a set of stories where there is control and conflict are stories that are inner and the understanding of what is going on.  The subcategories that stood out from the interview that are part of Agency were the responses that MC gave me about having agency, when she felt she had agency, willingly to take medications, an action that made MC has asserted agency such as not eating. Or when she tried to have agency, arguing with the doctor about what she feels and dislikes when it comes to medications. Conflict subcategories focus on medicine versus side effects, side effects, and doctor’s orders versus how MC’s body feels.
Conclusion
            “Expertise and compliance are important parts of the context of medical encounters,” (Barton, 2000).  In my data, as well in Barton’s research study, supports that compliance and medical knowledge creates a certain kind of discourse, a medical discourse. In my data, the point of view of the patient is important when it comes to compliance versus non-compliance and how agency as well as conflict plays a part within a medical discourse. Within my data, as well as Barton’s research study, support the interaction between a physician (expert) as well as the patient when it comes to treating a medical condition.
Limitations
             In every data there are limitations and within my research study there were limitations compared to Barton’s research study. In my data, I only focused on the patient’s point of view regarding the way she views her medical condition and the way her physician speaks to her. Another limitation was that I only interviewed the patient, to have a more accurate analysis I would need to interview the physician. One of the limitations or differences between my data and Barton’s research study was that I focused on an adult, a female, who is able to respond for herself even though her state of being wasn’t very good. Which is different from Barton’s because she focused on a child with disability and how the compliance versus non-compliance applied to the child’s family. Within my data, the ethnographic study was limited to a Hematologist office, for a more accurate analysis I would need to observe MC in other places such as a hospital and the physician’s office. But for this research study I did have my subject MC and the nurses from the Hematologist’s office that helped me build my research study on medical discourse.


Works Cited


Barton, E. L. (2000). The interactional practices of referrals and accounts in medical discourse: expertise and compliance.
Emerson, R. M. (1995). Writing Ethnographic Fieldnotes.




Sunday, December 8, 2013

Blog 25- Draft of the Research Paper

Medical as a discourse community


          "Research on interaction in medical encounters has moved from a framework that assumed a static and institutional asymmetry between providers and patients" (Barton, 2000). Ellen Barton focuses on, " the situated nature of two intertwined dimensions of the context of medical encounters-expertise and compliance within the interactional practices of referrals and accounts of referrals between medical professionals and families" (Barton, 2000). In this research study I will study medical as a discourse community, meaning the language usage a physician (expert) uses when speaking to a patient opposed to how the physician (expert) speaks to the family. Within this research study I will focus on how the patient feels about how the physician talks to the patient versus family. Whether the patient has compliance versus non-compliance with what the physician (expert) requires.
             In this research study, the relationship between Barton's study and this research study is both focus on the compliance and non-compliance of what the physician (expert) requires the patient to follow. Although I will use Barton's research study, this research study will focus from an adult, the patient's point of view opposed to a parental view regarding a child as the patient.
 Ellen Burton's research study focuses on, "specifically on families who have a child diagnosed with a disability, and investigates a number of settings within this experience," (Barton, 2000). Within this research study I will focus on  an adult patient with a medical condition known as Lupus, focusing on her point of view of the way the physician speaks to her (as the patient) opposed to the way the physician speaks to the patient's family. I will focus on compliance and non-compliance of the patient with the physician's requirements.
            "In medicine, compliance and non-compliance are technically defined in behavioral terms as, "the extent to which a person's behavior coincides with medical or health advice" (Barton, 2000). According to Barton, "Often-cited examples of compliance and non-compliance in the medical literature include taking medicine, attending appointments, following dietary restrictions, performing self-examinations, etc." (Barton, 2000).
            Within this research study, compliance will be focused on the patient's communication with the physician, taking the required medication and procedures that the patient undergoes every time due to her medical condition. "When patients were asked what aspect of the interaction had the most influence in increasing their compliance behavior, most stated that it was having someone take the time to talk to them, answer their questions and consider their concerns" (Barton, 2000).
            "Discourse is assumed to be designed and shaped to occur in particular sequential and social contexts" (Barton, 2000). "When physicians make a referral, their medical expertise provides them with a coherent model of the various specialties and their domains" (Barton, 2000). Within this research study the patient was referred to a Hematologist and then the Hematologist referred the patient to a Gastroenterologist, who performs Endoscopy's. Each specialist performs tasks that are within their area of expertise.
             “Non-compliance, then, seems to be a contextual dimension of major importance: its discovery affects the interaction by triggering asymmetrical dominance by the medical professional in pursuit of accepted standards of medical care for the child,” (Barton, 2000). Not only is this research study focusing on compliance, non-compliance as well. With an adult patient, who is able to make decisions on her own, there are times due to the circumstances of the medical condition; the patient is often non-compliant to certain treatments given by the physician.  
            “Although the discovery of non-compliance holds significant consequences for the interaction between physicians and families, the situated discovery of a family’s lack of expertise also affects the course of interaction in medical encounters” (Barton, 2000). Within this research study, the patient had some encounters with her physician of being non-compliant when the physician kept insisting on the patient to continue taking a certain medication for a specific treatment. In this case the patient was non-compliant because of the side effects that she was feeling from that particular medication.  According to Barton, “ … if the non-compliance may be unintentional, as in…the physicians interaction and actions become more authoritative, as the family which has displayed its lack of expertise is turned over to the clinic staff” (Barton, 2000).
Methods
            Within this research study I conducted two interviews with an adult patient with a medical condition known as Lupus and her point of view of how her physician speaks to her (as a patient) opposed to how the physician speaks to the family. I will also focus on whether the patient has compliance or non-compliance when it comes to the physician’s regimen, requirements for treatments. The two interviews that I conducted each were thirty minutes long. Asking questions regarding her medical condition and her perspective on how her medical condition changed her being from the beginning of being diagnosed with the condition to how it evolved into what it is now. Focusing on when she was compliant to her physician’s requirement and when she was non-compliant as well. I also conducted an ethnographic study, which I observed the patient in a Hematologist’s office while doing her weekly blood count. The ethnographic study was twenty-five minutes long. “Ethnographic field research involves the study of groups and people as they go about their everyday lives,” (Emerson, 1995).
            In this research I will analyze the subcategories that are part of compliance and non-compliance. I will analyze Agency and Conflict, the two set of stories that came about within my subject’s responses to my interview questions.  The ethnographic study was conducted by observations and writing things down that were happening within the Hematologist’s office among two nurses and my subject.



* This is what I have so far, I'm still working on it, I hope I'm on the right path*

Blog 24

This is more of the analysis I did when it came to categories and using stories such as conflict and agency. I would like feedback on whether or not I'm going on the right track. I'm really nervous about this paper and I hope on my draft I have the correct opening paragraph.

Research question has been changed to : 
Medical as a discourse community with a focus on: How the patient feels about how the physician talks to the patient vs family. Whether the patient has compliance vs noncompliance with what the physician requires?

Categories:

Compliance:

  • Communication: MC talks about how her physician wants her to try many medications to see if MC tolerates any of them.
      A: What does the doctor say when you say you won't take that crap anymore?
  
     MC: Sometimes he tries to give me another medication. Try this one, try this one, but the results it's particularly the same. Pain in the stomach, sick, but he tries to always help me. Sometimes the medication works and I accept better than the last one or I reject it. It all depends on my body, if it accepts it or not. But I always try to tell him that I do or don't do well and he helps me. I can't say that he doesn't when its not true he has always helped me. At times we become stubborn, but we move forward. But I always take the medication he gives me and I try to explain my reaction whether good or bad.
  • Taking medication:   MC is complying with the treatments her physician prescribed for her medical condition. 
 A: What medication?

MC: Ahhh... it was so long ago. I took all possible type of medication for various treatments. It was cortisone, pain medication for inflammation, sleeping pills and...

*Please note I did not take anything away from this interview, this is her response which I feel is significant to the study and how it contributes to this category.*

A: Tell me a story when you were happy with the treatment, your physician prescribed to you?

MC: In the beginning when I first began taking  the injections what's the name?

A: Humira

MC: Humira, I was, I  thought that I got to the moment of bettering my condition, but unfortunately it only lasted about one or two months and then it went back to the beginning.

A: Describe to me more of what you mean about being happy with this treatment?

MC: Oh, because I stopped having pains, my blood levels were stabilized, my hemoglobin wasn't that low and I was in a better state. I was able to live my life freely. I still worked. After the day of 19th of December 2012, it was when everything happened.

A: And with this treatment of the Humira, how often did you do this treatment and for how long?

MC: It was once, one injection, every two weeks for two months. But on the second month, half way through I began feeling tired. I would become really tired especially after going up a flight of stairs, whatever little thing I would do, I felt tired. So I went to the doctors and the doctor said I can no longer take the injections because it wasn't helping, it was only harming me. And from there on, I kept going to the hospital, receiving blood transfusions.

In the first interview, A asks when MC did not comply to her doctors requirement, but the answer given by MC indicates both compliance and noncompliance when taking Prednisone, a steroidal medication.

A: Okay, Can you tell me a story, when you as a patient did not comply to the doctor's requirement for your treatment?

MC: No, I haven't failed with any treatment given by my doctor. Just the Prednisone, I never liked that medication. I tried to take it, I'm not saying daily (noncompliance), but there were weeks that I would take it the full week, (compliance) but there were other weeks that it wouldn't settle right with me.

A: Could you tell me more about your experience every time you are given a new medication to try for your treatment?

MC: If the doctor says I have to take it then I take it. But it's the side effects of that medication that I have to see to discuss with the doctor about how I feel, if I feel well, if its the same thing as not taking anything and with his experience he tries to help me. Certain new situations, I never refused taking it, at times I say I don't want it, it tastes horrible, I have stomach pains, or I'm not going to take that crap.

  • Procedures:  In my ethnographic study, it shows how MC, the patient goes every week to the Hematologist's office to check her blood count. This is considered as a procedure. In the interviews conducted MC speaks to A about the various procedures she goes through with this medical condition.
A: Now that you mentioned that, Tell me about your experience every time you are required to go to the hospital and how it effects you every time?

MC: Every time I end up going to the hospital, it effects me morally, physically and mentally because its not one or two times, it's various of times that i undergo the same procedure and every time I tolerate less each time.

A: Speaking about transfusions, could you explain t o me how you feel every time you get iron transfusions as well as blood?

MC: When I get iron and blood, the first and second day I feel my immune system down, but little by little as days go by I begin to feel more strength, I am able to do more things around the house. And my state of being is different. Just walking is the hardest thing for me because my bones hurt me a lot still. I do have medication for pain (inflammation), but it hardly helps me.

MC mentions Endoscopy's in her response to one of A's question. An endoscopy is a procedure, to look inside a person's internal organs using an endoscope.

MC: Ahhh, it's a critical medical condition because majority of the time I'm afraid to bleed, end up in the hospital, get blood transfusions. I need to do the treatment I need to do like go for Endoscopy's, cauterization. All of this. I can't live normally, I don't have quality of life.

A: Hmmmm, How has your medical condition affect you and your family, in terms of following with what the physician recommended?

MC: Only when I do the Endoscopy, everyone wants me to automatically drink the famous solution, its the solution that protects the stomach. But on the first and second day, I just can't put that solution in my mouth. Just by that  there's disagreements, one says drink it, another says drink and another one says drink it, but I can't. I have to scream and say, "Stop it, let me, my head alone."

Non-Compliance
  • Side Effects:  In the first interview A asks a question about a time that MC did not comply to her doctor's requirement.
A: Okay, Can you tell me a story when you as a patient did not comply to the doctors requirement for your treatment?

MC: No, I haven't failed with any treatment given by my doctor. Just the Prednisone, I never liked that medication. I tried to take it, I'm not saying daily, but there were weeks that I would take it the full week, but there were other weeks that it wouldn't settle right with me.

In the second interview A asks MC a question about sleeping pills and why MC doesn't like taking them.

A: How come?

MC: I don't like it, I never did. I feel sick with sleep pills or relaxers. Just the state of being apathetic and not have a sense of anything. The silence is horrible.

  • I know more than the doctor:
In this particular case MC explains through her point of view that she may not know a lot about medicine, but she knows how she feels while taking the medication.

A: Speaking about your physician, Tell me more of when you and your physician wouldn't see things eye to eye when it comes to your condition.

MC: When I don't agree with the doctor, neither is the doctor in agreement with my opinion; which in reality I don't know anything about medicine, but I feel my body and system, what's wrong. And sometimes he says its mentally and I say its not and he says that I have to take medication to sleep and I hate sleeping pills.

***
A: And what would your doctor say when you would....

MC: He would say that I'm stubborn and I said stubborn is you because I know what I feel. I know that I have no knowledge about medicine, but you don't know everything about my body and the way I react or not. I began the treatment to a certain point, but after that point I can't do it. And at times we have our encounters because I say one thing and he says another. Because of the blood sugar levels was making me scared of eating, afraid it'll rise. He would say it was all mental, it was me being paranoid. I'm none of that, absolutely nothing.


  • Fear:   Within the interviews A asked a followed up question about what MC doctor says and MC interrupts A and goes into what she's afraid of.
    •   A: Okay

      MC: Afraid yes, I was afraid of eating, that part yes. I was afraid because of my diabetes. Now a days when I do Endoscopy's, is when I feel nauseous, I don't want to eat, but that is normal, but there was a time that I wanted to stop eating because of my diabetes. And he would say I'm stubborn that I needed to eat, I know I needed to eat, but at the same time I was afraid of my diabetes.

      Also MC lives in a constant fear because of her medical condition. She lives in a constant fear of her hemoglobin dropping from the normal range. She explains that she's afraid that she will bleed or her hemoglobin is low because if these two things happen then everything returns to the way it was before; which means being admitted to the hospital and having transfusions.

      A: Tell me a story when you weren't happy with the treatment your physician prescribed to you?

      MC: Someone with the life condition that I have is never happy because I live always being worried, if its today I'll bleed or is it tomorrow my hemoglobin is low. If it's low, everything turns to be the same. It's transfusions, hospitals. It's a life that I have no quality at all. I can't do certain things that other people can do, I can't work. I have to do things much slower, yet I bleed. Many things I no longer can do, it's difficult.
    Sets of stories to analyze: Conflict and Agency
    • Conflict:
    -Medicine vs. side effects:  MC tried the medications that her physician prescribed to her. She would take them in hopes to feel better, but after a certain amount of time MC's body wouldn't tolerate it.

    A: What type of treatment?

    MC: Ahh...it was so long ago. I took all possible type of medication for various treatments. It was cortisone, pain medication for inflammation, sleeping pills and...

    Side Effects:

    A: Could you tell me more about your experience every time you are given a new medication to try for your treatment?

    MC: If the doctor says I have to take it then I take it. But it's the side effects of the medication that I have to see to discuss with the doctor about how I feel, if I feel well, if it's the same thing as not taking anything and with his experience he tries to help me. Certain new situations, I never refused taking it, at times I say I don't want it, it tastes horrible, I have stomach pains, I'm not going to take that crap.

    A: Okay, How has your doctor described to you what your case is in regards to your condition as well as if he has or had any case's that is similar to yours?

    MC: He has similar cases like mine, but they can take other medication that I can't take because my body rejects and the other patients have a life, a quality of life better than mine. Because I have Lupus. If I don't have the problem of always going to the hospital, receive blood, have transfusions, ahh, my bones hurt, I have poor quality of life.

    A: Speaking about your physician, tell me more of when you and your physician wouldn't see things eye to eye when it comes to your condition?

    MC: When I don't agree with the doctor, neither is the doctor in agreement with my opinion; which in reality I don't know anything about medicine but I feel my body and system, what's wrong. And sometimes he says its mentally and I say it's not and he says that I have to take medication to sleep and I hate sleeping pills.

    A: How come?

    MC: I don't like it, I never did. I feel sick with sleeping pills or relaxers. Just the state of being apathetic and not have a sense of anything. The silence is horrible.

    A: Explain to me a situation when you and your physician didn't see eye to eye?

    MC: It was when I began taking Prednisone that makes your blood sugars go high. It was that when my blood sugar levels were becoming high and I didn't want my levels to be high. So I would avoid eating so my levels wouldn't be so high and he didn't want that, he wanted me to eat and he gave me insulin, but I was never satisfied about taking insulin because its been years with just the pills and never did it pass the levels of 130, the max 150 if that. But with Prednisone, it started going to 300 levels and I didn't want to take insulin. But the doctor kept insisting that I needed to take it to help my blood sugar levels. I took it, he began increasing the insulin dosage and more and more, until I started feeling sick. That was when I told my physician that I can't handle this much of insulin I feel sick. But you have to take it and I said No because I feel sick.

    A: What would you feel when you would take insulin?

    MC: Just feeling sick. I felt like throwing up, very dizzy, ringing in my ears, it was a combination of symptoms that would put me nervous.

    A: Okay, explain to me one more time what is your medical condition?

    MC;  Starting with the immune system not working well, becoming autoimmune. Everything becomes low. The worse is I begin to bleed and I have malformations on the veins in my stomach, the most difficult becomes because I begin to bleed, everything due to Lupus. It attacks the stomach and every time it attacks, the veins burst and I begin losing blood.
    At times it'll take awhile like one to two months and suddenly the hemoglobin goes down. Everything goes down, my white blood cells, red blood cells, platelets, potassium, hemoglobin. I can't tolerate pills, capsules because it affects me my stomach. Everything has to be injected. All of this makes it difficult for me. I have to tolerate more, taking the potassium is no joke. If it's intravenously it burns so much, if it's solution it tastes disgusting. I have never had anything that can taste worse than the potassium.

    • Doctors order vs. How MC's body feels:
    A: Explain to me a situation when you and your physician didn't see eye to eye?

    MC:  It was when I began taking Prednisone that makes your blood sugars go high. It was that when my blood sugar levels were becoming high and I didn't want my levels to be high. So I would avoid eating so my levels wouldn't be so high and he didn't want that, he wanted me to eat and he gave me insulin, but I was never satisfied about taking insulin because its been years with just the pills and never did it pass the levels of 130, the max 150 if that. But with Prednisone, it started going to 300 levels and I didn't want to take insulin. But the doctor kept insisting that I needed to take it to help my blood sugar levels. I took it, he began increasing the insulin dosage and more and more, until I started feeling sick. That was when I told my physician that I can't handle this much of insulin I feel sick. But you have to take it and I said No because I feel sick.

    A:And what would your doctor say when you would...

    MC: He would say that I'm stubborn and I said stubborn is you because I know what I feel. I know that I have no knowledge about medicine, but you don't know everything about my body and the way I react or not. I began the treatment to a certain point, but after that point I can't do it. And at times we have our encounters because I say one thing and he says another. Because of the blood sugar levels was making me scared of eating, afraid it'll rise. He would say it was all mental, it was me being paranoid. I'm none of that, absolutely nothing.

    Agency:
    • MC felt she had agency:
    A: Describe your condition in more details? Tell me how your symptoms were in the beginning of your medical condition up to now?

    MC: In the beginning I felt well. I didn't have problems, didn't bleed, didn't need blood transfusions, didn't have shortness of breath, I didn't feel pain on my bones. I had a normal life like any other person, I worked.

    A: How many hours did you work?

    MC: I worked 30 years, I did my home life entirely. I would cook for the family. Little by little, I became tired, I would become tired more. I didn't have any force to leave the house, to go out and take a ride with the family. I had pain in my bones.

    • Willingly takes medication to feel better:
    A: What medication

    MC: Ahh..it was so long ago. I took all possible type of medication for various treatments. It was cortisone, pain medication for inflammation, sleeping pills and...

    MC was willingly to take insulin to control her sugars, but she was never satisfied about taking it. MC took it, having her insulin dosage increasing until she felt sick.

    • Asserted Agency:  MC would avoid eating while she was on Prednisone because MC was afraid that her blood sugar levels will keep increasing if she would eat. 
    A: Okay

    MC: Afraid yes, I was afraid of eating, that part yes. I was afraid because of my diabetes. Now a days when I do Endoscopy's is when I feel nauseous, I don't want to eat, but that is normal, but there was a time that I wanted to stop eating because of my diabetes. And he would say I'm stubborn that I needed to eat, I know I needed to eat but at the same time I was afraid of my diabetes.

    • Tried to assert agency: Argue with doctor:
    A: Speaking about your physician, Tell me more of when you and your physician wouldn't see things eye to eye when it comes to your condition?

    MC: When I don't agree with the doctor, neither is the doctor in agreement with my opinion; which in reality I don't know anything about medicine, but I feel my body and system, what's wrong. And sometime's he says its mentally and I say its not and he says that I have to take medication to sleep and I hate sleeping pills.

    A: While under treatment, have you every disagreed with his regimen? If so, describe the reaction of the physician as well as yours?

    MC: Its not the disagreement, it's the anger that I feel inside. I do the treatment that my physician gives and it doesn't resolve my life, it's not one of my failures its the anger that I have inside of me. All of the trying, the medications force myself and all of a sudden it goes back to zero.

    A: Can you describe your doctor's reaction?

    MC: My doctor has patience with me, sometimes he says that I put things in my head, that I shouldn't put things in my head, but only who is a patient with the condition I have, understands. I can't go against him because he's my doctor, he has taken care of me until now and never turned his back to me, he always supported me. Sometimes I complain with him, sometimes he complains with me. But we keep going.

    • Felt she did not have agency:
    A: Through your experience with this medical condition, what frustrates you as the patient and physician the most about your condition?


    MC: The frustrating part is that we've tried everything such as pills, relaxers, injections and nothing. It helps, what two, three days and it goes back to beginning. Just like me and my physician we become frustrated because we try and there's no improvement with me while other patients, that are there with the same condition, but without the system having a lot of problems, internally, doing the same treatment as I am, improves for them. And how come it doesn't in me.
    So I ask him the questions: Why doesn't it work for me?




    Monday, December 2, 2013

    Blog 22 A

     Analyzing my first and second interview using sets of  stories to analyze each one.


    First Interview
    Conflicts:

    MC faces a conflict of her autoimmune disease and all of the treatments that MC has tried and has the problem of not having quality of life. For example, in the first interview A asks MC a question about MC's physician.

    A: Okay, How has your doctor described to you what your case is in regards to your condition as well as if he has or had any cases that is similar to yours?

    MC: He has similar cases like mine, but they can take other medications that I can't take because my body rejects and the patients have a life, a quality of life better than mine. Because I have Lupus. If I don't have the problem of always going to the hospital, receive blood, have transfusions, ahhh, my bones hurt, I have poor quality of life.

    A: Okay, can you tell me a story when you as a patient did not comply to the doctors requirement for your treatment?

    MC: No, I haven't failed with any treatment given by my doctor. Just the Prednisone, I never liked that medication. I tried to take it, I'm not saying daily, but there were weeks that I would take it the full week, but there were other weeks that it wouldn't settle right with me.

    A: While under treatment, have you ever disagreed with his regimen? If so, describe the reaction of the physician as well as yours?

    MC: It's not the disagreement, it's the anger, that I feel inside. I do the treatment that my physician gives and it doesn't resolve my life, it's not one of my failure, it's the anger that I have inside of me. All of the trying, the medications, force myself and all of a sudden it goes back to zero.


    Chronological:

    A: Tell me a story when you were happy with the treatment, your physician prescribed to you?

    MC: In the beginning when I first began taking the injections, what's the name?

    A: Humira

    MC: Humira, I was. I thought that I got to the moment of bettering my condition, but unfortunately it only lasted about one or two months then it went back to the beginning.


    Turning Point:

    A: How has your medical condition affected you as a person?

    MC: Oh! A lot! It affected a lot, a lot. I'm not the same, there are day's I am desperate.

    (MC begins to cry)

    MC: What did I say?

    A: You feel desperate, not the same, feel sad, very nervous

    MC: (Sobbing) Yeah!

    Agency:

     A (interviewer) didn't respond to MC's answer.

    A: hmmm...Tell me a story when you weren't happy with the treatment your physician prescribed to you?

    MC: Someone with the life condition that I have is never happy because I live always being worried, it it's today I'll bleed or is it tomorrow the hemoglobin is low. If it's low, everything turns to be the same. It's transfusions, hospitals. It's a life that I have no quality at all, I can't do certain things that other people can do. I can't work. I have to do things much slower, yet I bleed. Many things I no longer can do, it's difficult.

    A: Okay, can you tell me a story, when you as a patient did not comply to the doctors requirement for your treatment?

    The hmmm and okay, both are indicators of A's way of not asking for new information based on the answers provided by MC. A wasn't in control when MC gave her answers.

    Thematic:  MC is emotional about her medical condition because MC always refers to have no or poor quality of life.

    A: In your words, how would you describe your case in regards to your medical condition?

    MC: Ahh, it's a critical medical condition because majority of the time. I'm afraid to bleed, end up in the hospital get blood transfusions. I need to do the treatment I need to do like go for Endoscopy's, cauterizations. All of this, I can't live normally, I don't have quality of life.

    A: Okay, How has your doctor described to you what your case is in regards to your condition as well as if he has or had any case's that is similar to yours?

    MC: He has similar cases like mine, but they can take other medications that I can't take because my body rejects and the other patients have a life, a quality of life better than mine. Because I have Lupus. If I don't have the problem of alway's going to hospital, receive blood, have transfusions, ahhh my bones hurt, I have poor quality of life.


    Second Interview
    Agency: 
    A (interviewer) was in more control, asking questions following answers provided by MC.

    A: Describe your condition in more details? Tell me how your symptoms were in the beginning of your medical condition up to now?

    MC: In the beginning I felt well. I didn't have problems, didn't bleed, didn't need blood transfusions, didn't have shortness of breath, I didn't feel pain on my bones.

    (Silence)

    I had a normal life like any other person. I worked.

    A: How many hours did you work?

    MC: I worked 30 years, I did my home life entirely. I would cook for the family. Little by little I became tired, I would become tired more.I didn't have any force to leave the house to go out and take a ride with the family. I had pain in my bones.

    In the second interview A was in more control of the interview, asking questions that would be asked in the middle when MC provided answers to specific questions.

    NOW/THEN:

    A: How long ago did this happen to you?


    MC: It was (pauses) two years ago, wait no, it was from 2011 into 2012. In 2011, I was feeling tired with pain. I didn't want to leave. I remember that we were close to Christmas time and I was with the family at the mall, buying gifts and I felt horrible. I remember that I had to sit on the floor because the pain was so much, painful on my bones that I even cried and from there (Pauses).


    Conflicts:

    A: Describe to me more of what you mean about being happy with this treatment?

    MC: Oh, because I stopped having pains, my blood levels were stablized, my hemoglobin wasn't that low and I was in a better state. I was able to live my life freely. I still worked. After the day of 19th of December 2012, it was when everything happened.

    A: And with this treatment of the Humira, how often did you do this treatment and for how long?

    MC: It was once, one injection every two weeks for two months. But on the second month, half way through, I began feeling tired. I would become really tired especially after going up a flight of stairs, whatever little thing I would do, I felt tired. So I went to the doctors and the doctor said I can no longer take the injections because it wasn't helping, it was only harming me. And from there on, I kept going to the hospital, receiving blood transfusions.

    A: Speaking about your physician, Tell me more of when you and your physician wouldn't see things eye to eye when it comes to your condition?

    MC: When I don't agree with the doctor, neither is the doctor in agreement with my opinion; which in reality I don't know anything about medicine, but I feel. My body and system, what's wrong and sometimes he says it's mentally and I say it's not. And he says that I have to take medication to sleep and I hate sleeping pills.

    A: How come?

    MC: I don't like it, I never did. I feel sick with sleeping pills or relaxers. Just the state of being apathic and not have a sense of anything. The silence is horrible.

    A: Explain to me a situation when you and your physician didn't see eye to eye?

    MC:

    MC: It was when I began taking Prednisone that makes your blood sugar levels go high. It was that when my blood sugar levels were becoming high and I didn't want my levels to be high. So I would avoid eating so my levels wouldn't be so high and he didn't want that, he wanted me to eat so he gave me insulin. But I was never satisfied in taking insulin because its been years with just the pills and never did it pass the levels of 130, the max 150, if that. But with Prednisone it started going to the 300 levels and I didn't want to take insulin. The doctor kept insisting that I needed to take it to help my blood sugar levels. I took it, he began increasing the insulin dosage, more and more until I started feeling sick. That was when I told my physician that I can't handle this much of insulin, I feel sick. But you have to take it and I would say No because I feel sick.


    Thematic: Same symptoms as before comes up when A and MC talk about trying new medications. It's thematic because in many parts of the interview MC mentions, "same, back to the beginning."

    THEN/NOW: When MC describes to A what her medical condition is. She refers to back from the beginning to now. When it all started and how it is now while under treatment.

    In the first interview A was leading MC in answering the questions, A wasn't responding back with follow up questions. MC due to the state of being she was in, it took a couple of minutes to take awhile to answer. A would also help MC with names of medications that MC wasn't able to remember. MC falls into the desperate patient, who wants a treatment that will last in the long run. In the first interview MC was very emotional compared to the second interview.


    Friday, November 29, 2013

    Blog 23


    Ethnographic Study

    Taking place in a Hematologist/Oncologist office. Names of my participants have been anonymous. No names have been revealed while this study was being performed.


    JOTTINGS: 

    • Good morning by the nurses
    • Nurses have Thanksgiving scrubs on
    • Nurse #1 calls my subject to follow
    • Both, subject and Nurse #1 walk down the hallway
    • Nurse #1 asks my subject how she is?
    • Subject nods her head side to side
    • Nurse #1, so-so or okay?
    • Subject responds with okay
    • Nurse #1 weighs subject
    • 143 lbs Nurse #1 says
    • Nurse #1 points to office
    • Subject sits in a green chair
    • Nurse #2 says Hi
    • Nurse #2 asks about primary care physician
    • Observer says I don't know
    • Nurse #1 with butterfly needle, alcohol pad, two tubes with red tops
    • Nurse #2 asks subject how she is feeling?
    • Nurse #2 asks about GI doctor
    • Nurse #1 cleans spot
    • Nurse #1 puts needle in vein
    • Blood flows into the tube
    • Nurse #2 walks away
    • Nurse #1 puts tube in machine
    • Subject left alone, waiting
    • Nurse #1 comes in with band aid
    • Nurse #2 asks Nurse #1, about blood count
    • Nurse #1 says 11.6
    • Observer says it went down from 11.9
    • Nurse #2 says it was 11.9, now 11.6, it went down but not too drastic.
    • Nurse #1 and #2 say Happy Thanksgiving
    • Nurse #2- Next week okay?
    • Subject says okay
    • Nurse #2 and #1 hug subject
    Head Notes:

    We enter the Hematologist/Oncologist office. Everyone says, "Good Morning." Nurse #1 comes down the hallway and calls subject to follow. Nurse #1 asks how subject is, subject nods head side to side. Nurse #1 asks if subject is so-so or okay? Subject responds to the nurse, "Okay." Nurse #1 weighs the subject and tells subject 143 pounds. Nurse #1 then directs subject to an office with a green chair. Nurse #1 leaves the room goes into another. Subject sits, waiting. Nurse #2 comes in and says, "Hi." Then Nurse #2 turns to subject, asking how subject is doing? Subject says, "I'm okay." Nurse #2 gets pushed by Nurse #1 to move to the side. Nurse #1 has a blue strap, two tubes with red tops, an alcohol pad and  a butterfly needle. Nurse #! straps subject's arm, taps her vein, whips the spot with an alcohol pad and inserts the butterfly needle as Nurse #1 unstraps the subject's arm. Nurse #1 then places the tubes when the subject's blood begins to flow.
    Nurse #2 asks about the primary care physician. Observer responds, "I'm not sure." Nurse #2 then says, "It's fine." Then Nurse #1 removes the needle, whips the spot with a cotton ball and goes away to get a band aid. Nurse #2 asks about the GI doctor and observer says, "I have to call to see what day they have her scheduled for." Nurse #2 says, "Okay, just let us know when you can."
    Nurse #1 puts tube in machine, comes into the room with a band aid. Then Nurse #1 and Nurse #2 leave, subject sits waiting. Then Nurse #2 asks Nurse #1 what's the blood count of the subject. Nurse #1 says 11.6. Nurse #2 turns to subject and observer, says 11.6. Observer says it went down. Nurse #2 says, "Yes, it was 11.9, but it wasn't too drastic." Subject gets up to leave, Nurse #2 says, "Happy Thanksgiving and hugs subject. Nurse #1 hugs subject and says, "Happy Thanksgiving."

    Observations about What Happened:

    Subject is going for blood count check a day before Thanksgiving. The office wasn't packed with other patients like it normally is. The staff always greet the subject with a friendly Good Morning. Everyone in their Thanksgiving scrubs. Nurse #1 comes down from the hallway and see's the subject. Nurse #1 directs subject's attention to follow her. Subject follows Nurse #1, Nurse #1 asks the subject how the subject is doing today? The subject nods her head side to side. Nurse #1 confused, asks, "so-so or okay?" The subject then turns to Nurse #! and responds, "Okay." 
    Nurse #! brings subject to weight and tells subject 143 pounds. The subject gets off and follows Nurse #1 into an office with a big green chair. The subject sits and places her arm on top of the arm rest of the green chair. Nurse Z#1 leaves the room for medical supplies. Nurse #2 comes into the room and says, "Hi," to the subject and observer. Nurse #2 asks whether or not the subjects primary care physician received their fax. The observer responds to the Nurse. Meanwhile Nurse #1 comes into the room, pushes Nurse #2 to move to the side, so there's room to pass. Nurse #1 puts a blue strap on subject's arm, taps on the vein so it can be visible and whips the spot with an alcohol pad and inserts the butterfly needle in subjects veins. Then Nurse #1 grabs two tubes, when the subjects blood filled both tubes, Nurse #1 removes strap and needle. Whips the excess blood with a cotton ball. Nurse #2 then asks about subjects GI doctor, when subject will see the GI doctor again. Observer turns to Nurse #2 and says, "I have to call the office to see what day she is scheduled for." Nurse #2 says, "Okay, that's fine, just let us known when you know." Nurse #1 leaves to get a band aid and to put one tube in the machine to read the subject's blood count.
    Nurse #2 leaves and subject waits to know the results. Nurse #2 asks Nurse #1 what is the subject's blood count. Nurse #1 says, "It's 11.6" Observer says, "It went down from last week." Nurse #2 says, "Yes, but not too drastic." Nurse #2 gives subject a copy of the count as the subject is getting up to leave. Nurse #2 gives subject a hug and says, "Happy Thanksgiving, take care of yourself and if you need anything call me." Then in the hallway Nurse #1 says, "Happy Thanksgiving," and hugs the subject.

    Things I remember later:

    Nurse #1 and the rest of the staff had Thanksgiving scrubs. Nurse #2 was the only one with white scrubs and a lab coat on. Nurse #1 puts the supplies on the side chair next to the green chair before performing blood work. Once the subject hugs Nurse #1, subject gives her two kisses for marriage and Nurse #1 says, "Yes, I need all the good luck and vibes to get married." The observer pays for the visit and then looks for the subject, who was sitting in the waiting room. Observer makes an appointment for subject for next week. One of the employee's comes up and hugs both the subject and the observer. Wishing a Happy Thanksgiving.

    Monday, November 25, 2013

    Blog 22

     I conducted my second interview with my first subject. I will also conduct an ethnographic study using two different nurses and my main subject. I will record my jottings, everything I remember and notes. But this is my second interview with my first subject which was translated from Portuguese into English. This is a non edited version between my subject and I.

    SECOND INTERVIEW

    A:  Describe your condition in more details? Tell me how your symptoms were in the beginning of your medical condition up to now?

    MC: In the beginning I felt well. I didn't have problems, didn't bleed, didn't need blood transfusions, didn't have shortness of breath.I didn't feel on my bones.
    (SILENCE)
    I had a normal life like any other person. I worked....

    A: How many hours did you work?

    MC: I worked for 30 years, I did my home life entirely. I would cook for the family, clean. Little by little I became tired, I would become tired more. I didn't have any strength to leave the house, to get out and take a ride with the family. I had pain in my bones.
    (A interrupts)
    A: How long ago did this happen to you?

    MC: It was, (pauses), two years ago, wait no, it was from 2011 into 2012. In 2011, I was feeling tired, with pain. I didn't want to leave the house. I remember that we were close to Christmas time and I was with the family at the mall, buying gifts and I felt horrible. I remember that  I had to sit on the floor because the pain was so much, so painful on my bones that I even cried. And from there. (Pauses)

    A: So, describe to me how the pain was like?

    MC:A pain can't be described correctly. It's very painful and unbearable. It's in the bones, joints, it was like someone breaking all of your bones, every single one.

    A: Ahh..okay
    A: and then, when..continue

    MC: Then I went to the doctor, to find out why I felt so tired and sick. It was the tiredness that the doctor found out that I was anemic and that I have Lupus. And it was then that I started a treatment, that took?

    A: What type of treatment?/
    MC: The name of the medicine I don't remember?
    A: What medication?

    MC: Ahhh...it was so long ago. I took all possible type of medication for various treatments. It was cortisone, pain medication for inflammation, sleeping pills and

    A: How was it like when you couldn't sleep?

    MC:: It was unbearable because you don't have position, you turn to one side and turn to the other side, the pain doesn't stop. You become nervous, you go to the floor, leave the floor, you go to a chair, you leave the chair and the pain continues. It's always the same, it doesn't change. Nothing, but even so I still went to work until I started a month or two months before the 19th of December 2012. I started with a new treatment that was the Humira injections. There, the first month was amazing for me.

    A: Okay, so you're saying that you were happy with the Humira?

    MC: Yes

    A: Describe to me more of what you mean about being happy with this treatment?

    MC: Oh, because I stopped having pains, my blood levels were stable, my hemoglobin wasn't that low and I was in a better state. I was able to live my life freely. I still worked. After the day of December 19, 2012 it was when everything happened.

    A: And with this treatment of the Humira, how often did you do this treatment and for how long?

    MC: It was once, one injection every two weeks for two months. But on the second month, half way through, I began feeling tired. I would become really tired especially after going up a flight of stairs, whatever little thing I would do, I felt tired. So I went to the doctor and the doctor said I can no longer take the injections because it wasn't helping it was only harming me. And from there on, I kept going to the hospital, receiving blood transfusions...

    A: Speaking about transfusions, could you explain to me how you feel every time you get iron and blood transfusions?

    MC: When I get iron and blood, the first and second day I feel my immune system down, but little by little as days go by I begin to feel more strength. I am able to do more things around the house. And my state of being is different. Just walking is the hardest thing for me because my bones hurt me a lot still. I do have medication for pain (inflammation), but it hardly helps me.

    A: And what happened to the Humira, why did the doctor stop it?

    MC: It was when with the injection, I began feeling tired and at the same time the doctor told me that I wouldn't be able to take it anymore because my white blood cells dropped a lot and the platelets were very low. And from that we needed to stop the injections because it wasn't helping me.

    A: Speaking about your physician, tell me more of when you and your physician didn't see things eye to eye when it came to your condition?

    MC: When I don't agree with the doctor, neither is the doctor in agreement with my opinion, which in reality I don't know anything about medicine, but I feel my body and system, whats wrong. And sometimes he says its mentally and I say it's not and he says that I have to take medication to sleep and I hate sleeping pills.

    A: How come?

    MC: I don't like it, I never did. I feel sick with sleeping pills or relaxers. Just the state of being apathetic and not have a sense of anything. The silence is horrible.

    A: Explain to me a situation when you and your physician didn't see eye to eye?

    MC: It was when I began taking Prednisone that makes your blood sugar levels go high. It was that when my blood sugar levels were becoming high and I didn't want my levels to be high. So I would avoid eating so my levels wouldn't be so high and he didn't want that, he wanted me to eat so he gave me insulin. But I was never satisfied in taking insulin because its been years with just the pills and never did it pass the levels of 130, the max 150, if that. But with Prednisone it started going to the 300 levels and I didn't want to take insulin. The doctor kept insisting that I needed to take it to help my blood sugar levels. I took it, he began increasing the insulin dosage, more and more until I started feeling sick. That was when I told my physician that I can't handle this much of insulin, I feel sick. But you have to take it and I would say No because I feel sick.

    A: What would you feel when you would take insulin?

    MC: Just felt sick. I felt like throwing up, very dizzy, ringing in my ears, it was a combination of symptoms that would put me nervous.

    A: And what would your doctor say when you would..

    MC: He would say that I am stubborn and I said that he's stubborn because I know what I feel. I know that I have no knowledge about medicine but you don't know everything about my body and the way I would react or not. I began the treatment to a certain point but after that point I can't do it. And at times we have our encounters, because I say one thing and he says another. Because of the blood sugar levels being high it was making me scared of eating, afraid it'll raise. He would say it was all mental that it was me being paranoid. I'm none of that, absolutely nothing.

    A: okay...

    MC: Afraid yes, I was afraid of eating, that part yes. I was afraid because of my diabetes. Now a days  when I do endoscopy's is when I feel nauseous and I don't want to eat but that is normal. But there was a time that I wanted to stop eating because of my diabetes. And he would say I'm stubborn that I need to eat. I know I need to eat but at the same time I was afraid of my diabetes.

    A: Tell me more about your family's involvement with your treatment:?

    MC: My family has been a great support for me. Some times I don't recognize it because of being desperate, for wanting to be healthy, for not wanting to give a hard time to anyone. But the person that has helped me more, more, more and has supported me in everything is my daughter. She is the one that takes me to the doctors, she knows the medications that I take, when I go to the hospital she has everything written down. She is cautious in everything, talks to the nurses, questions the doctors about my condition. She has been a great support to me. At times I know that I say things that I shouldn't say, but she knows that it's just nonsense.

    A: Could you tell me more about your experience every time you are given a new medication to try for your treatment?

    MC: If the doctor says I have to take it, then I take it. But it's the side effects of that medication that I have to see to discuss with the doctor about how I feel, if I feel well, if it's the same thing as not taking anything and with his experience he tried to help me. Certain new situations, I never refused taking it, at times I say I don't want it, it tastes horrible, I have stomach pain or I'm not going to take that crap.

    MC: Oops I said a bad word

    ( A and MC laughs)

    A: What does the doctor say when you say you won't take that crap anymore?

    MC: Sometimes he tries to give me another medication. Try this one, try that one, but the results it's particaly the same. Pain in the stomach, sick, but he tries to always help me. Some times the medication works and I accept better than the last one or I reject it. It all depends on my body if it accepts it or not. But I always try to tell him that I do or don't do well with it and he helps me. I can't say that he doesn't when it's not true. he has always helped me. At times we become stubborn, but we move forward. But I always take the medication he gives me and I try to explain my reaction whether good or bad.

    A: Through your experience with this medical condition, what frustrates you as the patient and physician the most about your condition?

    MC: The frustrating part is that we've tried everything such as pills, relaxers, injections and nothing. It helps, what two, three days and it goes back to the beginning. Just like me and my physician, we become frustrated because we try and there's no improvement with me. While other patients, that are there with the same condition, but without having other problems internally, are doing the same treatment as I am, and it improves for them. And how come it doesn't in me?
    So I ask him the question: Why doesn't it work for me?

    A: And what does he say?

    MC: He says that it all depends on the body of the person. And your body doesn't accept certain things because whether taking it or not, it's the same thing, it won't help you in nothing and it could be that I've already tried it. Like the very first medications after one or two years, I return to taking the same medications and the condition was exactly the same. In the beginning it was fine, when I reach the middle, my body rejects it and I become frustrated. The doctor never showed me his frustration, he has always helped me with what he can. Unfortunately my body sometimes accepts the treatment and at times it rejects it. What are we going to do?

    A:Okay, explain to me one more time what is your medical condition?

    MC: Starting with the immune system not working well, becoming autoimmune. Everything becomes low. The worst is I begin to bleed and I have malformations on the veins in my stomach. The most difficult part becomes when I begin to bleed, everything due to Lupus. It attacks the stomach and every time it attacks, the veins burst and I begin losing blood. At times it'll take awhile like one to two months and suddenly the hemoglobin  goes down. Everything goes down, my WBC's, RBC's, platelets, potassium and hemoglobin. I can't pills, capsules because it affect my stomach. Everything has to be injected. All of this makes it difficult for me. I have to tolerate more taking the potassium, it's no joke. If it's intravenously, it burns so much. It it's solutions, it tastes disgusting. I have never had anything that can taste worse than potassium.

    A: How would you describe the way your physician cares for you ?

    MC: He's the best doctor I have so far. He worries about me, how I'm doing and check all levels. He helps me in all he can. I wouldn't  trade him. Just the patience and strength he has for me to figure out something that can help me since he can't cure me. he helps ,e to feel in a different state of being. But it's not his hands and I  know that. He listens to me, helps me through all of this. It's hard to find someone like him.